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August 8, 2008

Sweet mother of Gawd, Will it ever end?

AH if it wasnt enough that I had a hard drive fry on my old computer. Had to fight with Road Runner for about 3 weeks to get my service switched from DSL to Cable... NOW I'm online for a matter of days and got slammed with a hard core maleware/virus thing... called virtumonde!

FOLKS, watch out for that one. It infiltrates all kinds of hidden folders and no matter how many times you find and delete it with virus or spyware watch programs, it is imbedded in your start files and just reinstalls itself on reboot. It took me installing about 4 programs and running them conscecutively by following instructions to a T over a period of two days to get rid of the majority of the infection. It is NOT an easy removal process... no instant download cure for it yet.

So if your virus or spyware protection comes up with VIRTUMONDE get some help to get rid of it, or go to majorgeeks.com where they have several posts with instructions to follow, but trust me, it will take several hours and bleary eyes from reading and being stuck to your computer chair to fight the relentless monster.

R


Posted on 08/08/2008 10:11 PM Comments (2)

August 3, 2008

PLEASE VOTE FOR MY FRIENDS AND BAND SOAM

CLICK THE BANNER BELOW TO VOTE FOR SOAM!
YOU MUST JOIN 'MAKE ROCK HISTORY' TO VOTE!
THEN BOOKMARK THE PAGE & VOTE EVERY DAY!!!
THANKS SO MUCH GUYS AND GALS
BE SURE TO WATCH THEIR VIDEO (THAT I RECORDED LAST YEAR)
AND LOOK AT THEIR PROMO PICS (THAT I SHOT RECENTLY)
AND LISTED TO SOME OF THEIR OTHER GREAT SHIT!

Posted on 08/03/2008 9:35 PM Comments (0)

July 31, 2008

New Playlist on my page and I saw 'Step Brother's'

I have added a new playlist to my page, it is 'Raven sings the hits' LOL!
Can you just see me hockin my album on late night infomercials? HA!
So anyway, there is some top 40, some oldies and even country yes country...
it isnt my bag, but I live in WV so my accent lends myself to the genre,
I used to sing locally and that was what people wanted to hear, so I have a
small collection of songs I know... anyway... sorry no MCR was available...
I'm a bit rusty, but I got hooked on myspace karaoke! So I'm here to make
everyone's ears bleed... go to my main page, grab a tissue to sop the blood and enjoy!
LOL R

A side note, I saw Step Brothers the other day with Jen (the voice wasnt working at the beginning and I complained and got a free ticket for another show SWEET!) Anyway it
was a fucking laugh riot!
A couple funny parts from the previews must have ended up on the cutting room floor thought...
but I def reccomend it!
First movie I have seen in a theater in YEARS!

One of the funniest lines
"I'm gonna fill my pillow case with bars of soap and beat the shit out of you" Will Farrel!

Oh and some teabagging occures and you can see it, but I dont think they were real ones, or he has some big long swing'n monsters EW! LOL
R
Posted on 07/31/2008 10:08 PM Comments (2)

July 25, 2008

I'm without internet for now... details inside

Ok, so I had cancelled my acct with verizon at the end of my contract and the jerkoffs disconnected my email a day early and I was livid. But what can I do, sue them for my emails? It sucks, I lost a lot of shit, but I dont figure I can get any attorney to take a case over lost emails against a big dog company like Verizon.... so I let it go begrudgingly...

But it doesnt end there. The cable company came out to hook up the cable and I wasnt informed I had to have permission from my landlord, so they had to reschedule. Then they were supposed to come yesterday and I stayed home an hour from work waiting. When they didnt show I called, only to find they had changed my appt to today in the evening, I told her how pissed I was, that they changed it and didnt let me know, so she assured me they would come after three so I could be there and they would call 30 min before.

Well douchebag shows up at 1:00 with no call and I'm a half hour away at work. He first doesnt want to accept my landlords message on the machine that it is ok to drill the hole, and I lit into him, that Iwas already told that would be acceptable. He told me the time instructions werent on his order. SOOOO if this isnt enough Kev calls back later that he cant get his drill to go through the wall, so now we had to reschedule again. When I called the cable company when I got home I let them know how livid I was. They rescheduled it for Tues and Im goingto have a friend help me drill the hole before they come over.

I gave them instructions again to come after three, lets see if they follow them this time.

For nowI am at my friends house reading my messages and letting my minions know I shallreturn!

Till Tues, hopefully

R


Posted on 07/25/2008 4:09 PM Comments (4)

July 19, 2008

Raven sings Karaoke at myspace! (link fixed)

So far  I have only performed two 'dood' songs... but they are some of my favs and in my vocal range. There are some I would really like to do but as of yet aren't on the playlist choices. So working with what is available.

visit my new karaoke page here:
http://kSolo.MySpace.com/hotel_bellamuerte
and be sure to post and rate and let me know what ya think... even if you think I suck hard core, I have a pretty thick skin really! LOL

I have sang karaoke before in real life, but it is a complete different animal working with a crappy line in mic on my computer and trying to adjust the levels to be of decent sound quality.

It does seem that there is a slight delay (my vocals are a fraction of a second behind even though they are on when I sing it) I dont know if it is a connection speed issue or a flaw that everyone is experiencing. If anyone knows if there is a setting I can adjust to fix the problem, please let me know as I am new to this myspace karaoke thing, but I dig it already. I'm gonna have to upgrade to more than 10 songs I'm sure.

But for now, I'll leave my two songs to test the waters.
:)
R


Posted on 07/19/2008 2:21 PM Comments (5)

June 18, 2008

IT IS FINISHED! Part III of "2008 My Chemical Experience"

This is the last of the three part video series from The 2008 My Chemical Experience with Millieann282000 and me RavenBlackhardt, for My Chemical Column @ Buzznet.com

This took me a LOOONNNG TIME!
From the time I got off work at 3:30pm until I went to bed around 11:30pm yesterday
and it is now 12:19am and I began around the same time today, so that is around 17 hours to make around a 10 minute video.
My butt is sore, but I am very proud of the outcome.

I think this is probably the best video blog I have made since we began our journey on the last My Chemical Experience in August of last year. But you be the judge!

I have saved the project file and it is in the process of converting to a viewable online video file. Then it takes a while to upload to youtube, so I wont have it online until tomorrow... but I promise you... it will be worth it!

Give me a day or so to let my butt puff back up after sitting for two days working on this one and I will put together all the video footage from the Madison Square Garden show and upload it as well!

Good Night my kiddies
So Long and Goodnight!
LOL
R


Posted on 06/18/2008 9:24 PM Comments (2)

June 17, 2008

Part III of "My Chemical Experience 2008" is almost complete!!!!

I didnt intend to get started on it yet, but I had an inspiration involving the song "Blood" and it is turning out so awesome!
It looks like I will be able to fit the remaining interviews into this 3rd & last part of the 2008 My Chemical Experience video blog series.

There is also clips from MCR's show at MSG. Don't worry, I will be making a compilation video from the NY show as a bonus video. However, I didnt record the entire show song by song like I did at The Prudential Center. I had used up a large portion of my memory cards on the interviews, but there is a good bit of footage and I believe two whole songs.

I should have part III ready to upload for you tomorrow. I have a belly ache (everyone go ahhh poor baby) and Im going to bed now.

Good Night my friends
R


Posted on 06/17/2008 9:39 PM Comments (2)

June 14, 2008

Part II of the My Chemical Experience will be here SOOON!

I just finished editing part II of the 2008 My Chemical Experience with My Chemical Column editors Millieann282000 & Me, RavenBlackhardt!


It is slowly uploading to Youtube as we speak and as soon as it is finished I will add it to the collection here at buzznet and the column.
Watch your buzznet inbox for an alert from the group when it is here for your viewing pleasure!

This time look for lots of cool fan tats and more commentary from fans just like you!
Part III should also hold some video clips from the NY show... if not room for it in Part III there WILL be a part IV!
You will get to see it all in all its my chemical experience glory!

ANTICIPATION builds character right? LOL I can't stand waiting either... but it should be on buzznet before the nights end... if youtube upload cooperates faster than last time! :)
R


Posted on 06/14/2008 7:11 PM Comments (0)

June 11, 2008

anyone else having probs with friend requests?

I  have about 20 new ones in my inbox! Yet there is no "new friend requests" showing in my console, and when I click manage friends and choose requests, it says there are none!

Is there a buzznet glitch? it takes forever to open up each message and click accept. I used to just select all and accept.

Anyone else having this problem?
R


Posted on 06/11/2008 2:39 PM Comments (3)

June 6, 2008

My entry in the Design a buzzmob button mission.

button in straight jpg format (edges beyond the rounded corners will be white)

animated gif button on transparent background useable on all colored backgrounds.

Can also be static (non animated) if the rules dont allow for animated button entries.

To see a demonstration on what I am refering too with the transparency issue & what these buttons look like on a colored background go HERE

R

 

 


Posted on 06/06/2008 8:22 PM Comments (2)

June 5, 2008

I need your sUZZort!

I need your SBUZZPORT!

Ok, I entered a tshirt design contest at buzzmob on the advice and encouragement of Millie... I have been so aggrivated about my computer failing that I have been dragging my feet about reinstalling some programs I use for photo editing and art. I needed a kick in the pants and Mill did it for me! I can always count on my eM!

ANYWAYS
can you please go HERE, and if you like the design buzz it?

I appreciate all your help! Tell your friends to vote too.
We are supposed to rally our friends to vote for our entries, so
Rally! Or as they say on Fairly Odd Parents...
"Scramble the fairies!"
(Having toon watching kids has it's perks! LOL)
I love to scramble the fairies!

OHY AAAAND BE SURE TO JOIN DA NEW BUZZMOB HERE:
THE BUZZMOB

Thanks in advance my fellow buzzkateers!

R


Posted on 06/05/2008 7:53 PM Comments (0)

June 4, 2008

Ha ha this is a cool application!

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Posted on 06/04/2008 3:49 PM Comments (4)

June 3, 2008

THE MCR EXPERIENCE FROM PHILLY TO NY WITH MILLIANNE28200 and RAVENBLACKHARDT...

I just wanted to let those of you know that maybe interviewed in Philly for My Chemical Column, that my hard drive crashed and I have yet to reinstall many of my programs needed to edit and complete the movie.
I had started on it when the hard drive bit the dust and lost all of that work... but fear not, the files were on my external hard drive and I still have all the footage, I just need to re-put it together and as soon as the kids ar out of school (this week) I will have more time to sit down and get it done.

It also kinda takes a chunk out of your gumption when you already had a good part of it done and have to start over... so bare with me while I remotivate my ass! LOL
Thanks for your patience...
Raven


Posted on 06/03/2008 3:52 PM Comments (1)

May 23, 2008

I'm finally back and OMG has this been a nightmare!

Ok, so this is a little back story. Since the day I got my computer, it has crashed almost daily (system stop error) and rebooted itself, if it did miss a day or two, it would make up for it on the third and crash multiple times.

This was a irritation, but the guy who built my computer, assured me it was just a driver problem.

For nearly two years I have put up with that problem, because otherwise I loved my computer's speed and performance.

All that began to change about Sept of this year.

When booting up the computer I got an No hard drive error in CMOS. I panicked knowing everything that I had stored on my unit and called my friend Jen's husband who is quite knowledgable when it comes to these mechanical beasts.

He gave me some advice to try taking out my system battery and then replacing it and to my glee it worked.

However, about a month later it happened again. This now freaked me out, I felt something was definitely causing this and I backed up the majority of my important photos and documentation onto my external hard drive. I never got around to backing up my saved emails and adress book, nor my bookmarks of favorite sites or sites I wanted to reference at a later time.

Last weekend my computer locked in CMOS and would continually reboot when it tried to load Windows. I knew this was bad.

I removed the system battery, but this time it didn't work. Jim came over and tried to do a "fixboot" but it was unsuccessful and I had to reload windows.

The bad thing about that, my computer came pre-loaded and I was never given the back up disc to this unit. SO I had to repurchase windows XP.

I reluctantly did so.

I loaded and registered windows only to not be able to connect to the internet because the fresh install wiped out my ethernet card driver. No matter how much I had my friends search, the driver seemed non existant.

But none of this mattered as when a friend finally found what was possibly the driver and put it on a thumbdrive for me, I turned my computer on, only to hear loud clicking and a blue flashing screen, system failure... my hard drive fried.

I had already purchased a new SATA hard drive for the new unit I intend to build/have built and I found out my computer had SATA capability even though I was previously unaware.

So I remove the faulty hard drive and install the new SATA. The computer would see it in CMOS, but when trying to install windows it would say No Drive. WHAT? I can't believe this shit!

So I call Seagate, who manufactured the drive that failed as well as my new SATA. I found out (asked on reccomendation of my dear gal Millie) that the faulty hard drive was actually under warranty. So they sent me a new one.

It arrived today. I installed it and started it up, installed windows XP again only to still see no driver for my ethernet available.

Jim suggested that I use the wireless router from my unworking unit... DUH why didnt I think of that? BECAUSE I have just about fried my brain trying to fix this beast!

Anyway, I put it in and it doesnt want to connect. I have to call verizon and get some assistance and finally I am now online.

Then I had something else wierd happen!
As soon as I turned on IE it gave me this wierd ass tebet home page and it was greyed out in my internet tools to reset it.

I searched and searched to find a way to get around that and finally did.

So now I just need to go install drivers for my sound card, video card etc that are not functioning due to my reinstallation of windows on a new hard drive.

But at least... the drive failed slowly and gave me several warnings before completely going, giving me time to move the majority of my important things to an external. So thank the computer gods for that one. I still lost some important things in my saved emails, but my kids photos and home movies and my concert photography is not replaceable. Eventually I will collect most all my adresses again, but some documentation that I didnt back up to word is forever gone.

But I'm glad I'm finally back.

Just to let you know, until I get things squared away, I probably wont be updating my blackhardtphotos profile with any pictures as I dont intend to reinstall my photo editing software on this unit.

I am going to make this a browsing computer only and give it to my husband and kids and install all my art and photo editing programs on my freshly built unit that I should have ready in hopefully a few weeks!

Moral to this story? What you have heard a million times! ALWAYS back up your hard drive, put your photos on disc, save duplicates on an external or something. When your hard drive goes, it can cost thousands of dollars to retrieve it, if it can be retrieved and it is sickening to loose years of saved info. That is one thing that is bad about storing things on a computer... notebooks and photo albums and file folders may take up lots of space, but at least they dont crash and dissappear into oblivion on a whim of the computer's hard drive... So learn from my loss and back your shit up friends!

:)
I missed you all.
R


Posted on 05/23/2008 8:29 PM Comments (16)

May 14, 2008

Anti Drug PSA Parody - MCR shoutout!

I tried to upload this to videos, but the link nor the embed code would work... so trying it via journal, let's see what happens! SOME FUNNY SHIT...

Remember that anti pot PSA with the talking dog? Joe Rogan (Mikey and Gerard's cousin btw) even did a skit on it (sorry couldnt find it) and how stupid it was... like this girl would just be thoughtful about what the dog was saying... not be completely freaked out that the dog is talking and that he is being condescending at that! LOL

If you dont know what PSA I'm talking about watch this:
Anti Drug PSA

Well my hubby and I were surfing Gorrilamask.net they have some funny videos and stuff, check it out... some not "family friendly" but funny...

Anyway, we stumbled upon this parody of the above commercial! The beginning is pretty much the same idea, but stay tuned for the second half! I laughed my ass off. MCR even gets a shout out... sorta! We all gotta laugh at ourselves!

so without further adu... the parody:
PSA PARODY


Posted on 05/14/2008 8:50 PM Comments (6)

Remember that anti pot PSA with the talking dog?

I tried to upload this to videos, but the link nor the embed code would work... so trying it via journal, let's see what happens! SOME FUNNY SHIT...

Remember that anti pot PSA with the talking dog?

If you dont watch this:
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Well my hubby and I were surfing Gorrilamask.net they have some funny videos and stuff, check it out... some not "family friendly" but funny...

Anyway, we stumbled upon this parody of the above commercial! The beginning is pretty much the same idea, but stay tuned for the second half! I laughed my ass off. MCR even gets a shout out... sorta! We all gotta laugh at ourselves!

so without further adu... the parody:

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Posted on 05/14/2008 8:46 PM Comments (2)

May 9, 2008

Confirmation from Frankie

I was so greatful when after waiting and all the other band members left, that Frankie stayed to sign autographs. We weren't allowed to have our cameras out when he was signing, so no pics, but I did get some video footage of the other band members leaving as well as Frank hanging out inside before comming out.

But, I did get to talk to him briefly... this is how it went.

Raven: Hi Frankie
Frankie: Hi how ya doin'?
Raven: "I'm good, You are so Awesome for coming out here to see us"
Frankie: *HUGS* Hey no problem, Thanks for coming out here and waiting in line.
Raven: Remember this hoodie? Like I gave you in MD
Frankie: "I sure do!"
Raven: Can you sign mine for me?
Franke: "absolutely"
Raven: Thanks, can I ask you one question?
Frankie: Shoot
Raven: Did you ever get to listen to that Old Ladies/Teenager Parody I gave you in MD?
Frankie: *smiles* YA, Ya I did, it was in my computer for the longest time, it would come up randomly on my rotation, and I would be like, whats that? Oh ya!" *laughs
Raven: I'm pretty fucking nuts huh?
Frankie *smiles* hmmm well your a little nuts *laughs
Raven: but that's good right?
Frankie: Ya thats definitely good!
Raven: Thanks again Frankie You rock
Frankie: Your very welcome

That is so cool to know that it didnt get pitched into a pile of fan gifts in a corner somewhere. That is one thing we know for sure, that mcr appreciate the things we give them! And it is great to get confirmation if they are actually used and appreciated.
Frankie rocks!

Posted on 05/09/2008 5:46 AM Comments (17)

May 4, 2008

Black Parade Is Dead DVD is MINE!

Mychemicalromance.com said:

"THANK YOU FOR YOUR ORDER!"

Cinco De Mayo officially began at midnight and I received the mcr email from Mikey Way giving the link to the pre-order page on the mcr site. Since the LTD ed usually goes at lightning speed and I missed out on the special edition LP of The Black Parade, I wasnt about to miss out on this one!


You can read the bulk email that was sent out at 12:01am at my chemical column
by clicking here!


Posted on 05/04/2008 10:54 PM Comments (4)

April 24, 2008

The most perfect description of me EVER!


You are the strongest members of the Zodiac. Yours is the power of the will and you have the ability to focus on your goals and desires and reel them in like fish. Such strength belongs to you that there are actually two totems for your sign; the eagle and the scorpion. This is because you go to the nth degree of your chosen path so you must choose a high road or a low one. You are passionate in the extreme, fiercely loyal to friends and family, highly magnetic and sometimes driven. Sharp as a tack, you are also worldly. Success is often yours because you never give up until you have achieved your dreams. A strong emotional element is essential for you in relationships.

Magnetic, elusive, sexy and determined. That’s you Scorpio! You were born under the eighth sign of the zodiac which is referred to by astrologers as a fixed water (ice) sign. In a lot of ways ice sums up your emotional character. But why is this, when you have fiery and warlike Mars ruling you?

Your star sign is probably one of the most misunderstood signs of the zodiac. It has had a pretty bad rap over the years, but that’s just because what people don’t understand, they tend to fear. That cool aloofness is just the surface of your complex nature, and is by no means bad. Below the surface of your cool exterior is a scorching and passionate fire. You know it and others sense it too.

You’re an emotional being, and you take it to the limits. In fact you need overkill to feel really alive. You also want approval, though you don’t often verbalise that. You give 100 per cent of yourself to those you love, and expect the same, if not more, in return. There are definitely no half measures in your attitude to love.

You are demanding of yourself and others, but when you give your heart to someone you’re very loyal. You are committed to anything you do, including relationships — you absolutely adore the idea of love. It’s a challenge that excites you.

You turn heads whenever you walk into a room — you are the strong, silent type, and you have a magnetic aura. You have something that’s hard to put your finger on but makes it nearly impossible for people to ignore you. You know full well that you can manipulate people, and you love it! This magnetic power is really your greatest strength.

It’s well known astrologically that the eyes of a Scorpio can hypnotise. Whether you know it or not, this is your most powerful physical trait. Often people will often say that you have amazing eyes. So even though you don’t always articulate your feelings, your eyes do plenty of communicating for you — they can express the full range of your emotional states.

Determination is another of your key characteristics. People can see you as insensitive to others’ needs, even obsessive, because you push forward so single-mindedly. There are no half-measures in your life — in friendship, love, family life or work. You want to be the best, and you won’t let anything stand in the way.
But on the plus side, you like to share your successes with the people you take under your wing, whether they’re family or friends.

You’re not afraid of obstacles or challenges, whether they are something unavoidable or foes or competitors. In fact, you thrive on them — you love trying to prove that no one can stop you.

If someone tries to corner you or put you in a difficult situation, they’d better be prepared to give it their best shot, because you won’t give in until you win, and your enemy is totally crushed in body, mind and spirit.

If that ruthless streak in your character can’t be satisfied straight away, you’ll wait, patiently, until the proper time to seek revenge. Time is of no consequence to you when it comes to wreaking vengeance.

The scorpion is the most vengeful and dangerous part of your nature. If you’re operating on that level, you’ll be constantly seeking to hurt others with your power. This is, of course, something to avoid.

Your eyes, as already mentioned, are your strong point.

You are a tireless worker and generally achieve great success after the middle part of life.
 
You're extremely passionate and determined. You're not interested in surface details - you want to know the heart of the matter. You would make a good judge because you're able to be objective and non-judgemental. You would also make a good detective - you're drawn to mysterious. You're something of a mystery yourself to some people.

Essentially, you're a strong individual, an extremely good friend, a formidable enemy, prone to intense likes and intense dislikes. You live relatively in the world of black and white.

You've little time for superficial people, places or things. You prefer deep commitment, deep conversation and deep thoughts. If you can't tell it like it is, you prefer to keep quiet. It should be mentioned that you have your share of secrets.

Your eyes. We could write a whole book about the looks that you give. We'd have a chapter on staring and a chapter on x-ray vision. No doubt people say things about your eyes: "If looks could kill," "I feel like you're mentally undressing me," etc. You've proven to everyone that you can hold on. Your staying power is second to none. Now learn to let go. Every day find something to sell, give away, throw out or burn. If you want to get the most out of life, let go of old crap, literally, figuratively, and most of all, psychologically

Many Scorpios are also drawn to "dark" things, and often wear the color black. Like Pluto, Scorpio's power often emanates from a hidden source, even when you don't say a word. Mysterious Scorpio is the zodiac's most misunderstood sign. You're so powerful that people feel your presence, even before you've said a word! Sensitive Scorpio picks up vibes. You see every little detail, and you can read people like an open book. Once your friends get used to your high-intensity style, they know that you're fiercely loyal. Anyone who betrays you had better watch out! Like a Scorpion, you'll deliver a painful sting of revenge.

The life of a Scorpio is challenging, but there’ll never be a dull moment.

Favorite Things: Underground music, spicy food, an air of danger, one-of-a-kind objects, wireless devices, organic ingredients, vinyl

What You Hate: Simple-minded people, insincere flattery, personal questions, living at someone else's house

Secret Wish: To have complete and total control

How to Spot Them: Intense eyes, a hawk-like gaze, smooth movements

Where You'll Find Them: In the studio producing a platinum album, sitting at the corner table of an underground bar, taking things apart and figuring how to put them back together again!

and I didnt know this before and it is so odd. My totem sign is a Raven!

CROW/RAVEN: Crows dislike solitude and feel most comfortable in company. Although usually good-natured and pleasant, they can be strongly influenced by negative atmospheres, becoming gloomy and prickly. Raven people are sociable, talkative folks, full of nervous energy and fluctuating moods. They are usually very flexible and adapt well to new environments and circumstances.

 

Crow - Spirituality, Intuition
Raven - Inner journeys, dreams, destiny


Posted on 04/24/2008 9:47 PM Comments (3)

April 22, 2008

Hello, I'm Raven and I have Hoshimotos Disease/Hypothyroid Disorder


Don't be alarmed. It is not a disease that you die from... unless you don't take proper medications and you would become so uncomfortable and the process is so slow, that you would become miserable and seek treatment before you would hit your death bed.

Nor is it contagious. It is an autoimmune disorder... now don't freak... AIDS and HIV are autoimmune disorders too, but this is not nearly the same. It can NOT be sexually transmitted it is hereditary in some cases and other times appears for no apparent reason.

I was diagnosed with hypothyroidism after I had my second miscarriage and a tubal pregnancy. As one of the signs of hyperthyroidism is inability to carry a pregnancy to term.
After I was diagnosed and given proper medication I was able to concieve and I have two beautiful children. Pregnancy was hard, due to my hoshimotos, I am also calcium deficiant and have developed severe osteoperosis. I have cronic pain in my lower back from my bones not being dense enough and prone to stress injury.

One of the main issues with thyroid disorder is inability to loose weight... often gaining it. I work very hard just to maintaint he size that I am. Even my doctor told me, he knows how hard I work, because the level of the disease I have, my thyroid is completely gone... and if I werent careful I could be upwards of 300lbs.. Im not even close to that... thankfully still in the 100s.

My thyroid is completely as they call it "burnt off" destroyed by my disorder and I am on a very high does of synthetic hormone. The only thing left of my thyroid is two tumors that were discovered when I was breast feeding my second son. I was unable to get them tested for cancer because it takes an iodine test... so I had to wait until my son was weened, not knowing for several months if I had cancer of the thyroid. Thankfully I did not. They are what they call "cold nodules" no blood flow to them, no chance to become cancerous in the future so no need to remove them.

Overall I'm pretty healthy... yes I deal with an increased amt of pain including frequent headaches and my memory is attrocious... I can watch something on TV and several weeks later, not even remember it at all. That can be very frustrating. But when it comes to having a disease... if you had to have one. Hoshimotos isn't the worst there is... of course I would love to not have hoshimotos disease. But I do and I have accepted it and altered my lifestyle to deal with it and be as healthy as I can possibly be.

There isnt a lot online about hoshimotos or hypothyroid disorder... I found out something recently, that Alicia (Mikey Way's wife) has hypothyroid disorder... I'm not sure of the degree of her disease, but Miss E was frustrated about some interenet fighting and had posted a blog about it and then ended by saying people should spend their time more wisely, like trying to find a cure or better treatment for thyroid disease so Alicia wouldnt have to deal with it anymore...

Some of the most common symptoms include:

  • Intolerance to cold
  • Weight gain
  • Fatigue
  • Constipation
  • Enlarged neck or presence of goiter
  • Small or atrophic thyroid gland (late in the disease)
  • Dry skin
  • Hair loss
  • Heavy and irregular menses
  • Difficulty concentrating or thinking
  • Chronic Pain

Additional symptoms that may be associated with this disease:

(those highlighted in red are ones I suffer with)

You can find out more about Hoshimotos and Thyroid disease here:

hoshimotos

It had a lot of accurate information on my symptoms and what I deal with on a daily basis.

I just felt like sharing, if anyone else has thyroid disease or other autoimmune disorders (which when you have one you are more likely to develope others as you get older) Feel free to talk about it here.


Posted on 04/22/2008 2:27 PM Comments (9)
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